I don’t think I’ve ever lived so contently in the present as I have been for the past few months. Never would I have thought in a million years that another person would allow me to feel more than I thought I ever could. The confidence, security, joy, and truthfulness that you have shown me about yourself, but have also brought out of me, has let me know that I am still learning more about who I am.
And I didn’t think that this could ever happen. Never have I been emotionally or physically close to a boy as much as I am to you. You are my best friend. Everyday I wish we could be together for more than our insanely busy schedules allow us to be, just so we could have an ongoing discussion about anything and everything. But I know that isn’t possible. So I will take our late night hangs after work where we feel like the city is ours and ours only. We stay up all night talking, learning more and more about each other. We go on two hour walks early in the morning and I listen to you tell stories about painting and your wonderful grandparents who raised you and your brother, and you have me on the ground laughing, yet, you’re the one who tells me I’m funny.
You. You have shown me that giving my whole self to you and being one hundred percent vulnerable can be the most beautiful thing. I’m so glad I waited for you. Did I ever think that when I met you back in January that one day you’d be my best friend and boy? I would have laughed. I wanted it, more than anything, but I never thought it was in God’s plan. Yet, you were. Therefore I thank God everyday for bringing you into my life.